Sometimes these SOC posts are hard to write because the things that are on my mind some days are too personal and raw to put on the blog. Believe me, it would make me feel better to write about them, and sometimes I do, in a private place. When it just concerns me, I have no problem telling you all about it, but other times, it feels wrong to expose anything about other people in my life.
What I can say is that life is a complicated mess. I watch my little boys smile with their whole face and laugh with their entire bodies, and I want to be like them. But when I can’t, I am just happy they can be like that. What I want for them more than anything is to keep that spirit and optimism and to not have to grow up and let the world taint their beautiful minds and hearts.
I also don’t know why I can’t stop listening to sad music when I’m feeling down. It certainly doesn’t help, but yet it feels so good. The Lumineers, Bon Iver and Coldplay are godsends these days. I have never met any of those musicians, but they’re like my friends. Maybe I should listen to Taylor Swift, except that I can’t even name one of her songs.
There have been some cool things going on this week outside of my own melancholy mind. I’m working on a crowd funding project with two of my very good friends and colleagues. It’s for the old prison in our town that’s been flipped into The Haywood Pathways Center (homeless shelter/halfway house/soup kitchen). I’ve written about this project before. We won the Ultimate Neighborhood Give Back Challenge, so Ty Pennington and the crew from Guaranteed Rate visited our town and helped renovate the old prison into an amazing place to help the homeless, working poor and former inmates.
Last night we took the boys to THE POLAR EXPRESS. It was so fun. They absolutely loved it. Both of them clutched their golden tickets in their little hands the entire night. My mom bought them engineer bears and Santa gave them each a jingle bell. Sometimes I feel like crying just watching them experience childhood. My heart aches thinking about how much I love them.
Thanks for listening today and don’t forget to enter the Biltmore Giveaway that ends tomorrow. Two winners will win four tickets each, and children 9 and under are already free. If you live anywhere near Asheville, NC, you don’t want to miss Christmas at Biltmore.
Hugs to you all!