There have been a lot of changes in my life and my boys’ lives over the past several years. They say anger is grief disguised and I’ll say that’s true. I’ve felt anger, guilt and frustration, but it’s all necessary to push through the muck to find peace. Despite those darker feelings, I’ve also felt so much gratitude, hope and excitement for the future.
This week we honored my late mom on her birthday. I miss her like crazy. We also celebrated the awesome dads in our lives on Father’s Day. Today, we say happy 4th birthday to my adorable niece, Maddie. I’m so sad we won’t be at her princess birthday party tomorrow. I wish we lived closer. Happy birthday, you spunky adorable little thing!
Summer is in full swing, and I’m feeling calm and hopeful. The boys both had wonderful school years. Case finished first grade and Brooks finished fourth grade. Their teachers served as cornerstones in their villages this year. I snapped this photo on their last day. I can’t believe how much they’ve grown and matured this year. It’s especially been a pivotal year for Brooks. He seems like such a young man now. I can’t believe he only has one more year of elementary school. Time truly flies, especially when you’re a parent watching your babies grow and change like crazy in front of your very own eyes.
While they had great school years, they were ready for a couple easygoing summer months. Even though I still have to work and the boys are attending several camps, summertime is more laid back than the school year. There is no rushing around to this or that or packing lunches and finishing homework. My boyfriend, Matthew and I got a pool membership at a local club so we can have a place for all of us to relax this summer. We’ve already been enjoying it immensely.
Finishing up the school year combined with a lot of travel left little time for me to get on the blog. I always miss my blog when more than a week goes by and I haven’t been able to get on and share a few highlights. And speaking of Zealous Mom, I celebrated the blog’s 7th anniversary this month. My first ever blog post was written on June 6, 2012. The topic was the exhaustion of having four-month old who wouldn’t sleep through the night. Here’s the photo of little Case that was used in that post.
I remember how nervous I was the first time I hit “publish” on this blog. I thought, “Will anyone even read it?” “Is my writing terrible?” “Should I be doing this?” Now, seven years later, this blog has become a lifeline and has chronicled the good, the bad and the ugly of my life. I wouldn’t trade it for anything. If you’ve been considering a big move or change (such as starting a blog), I’m here to say, go for it. Why not? Go after that thing that scares you the most.
With summer break here, I’m ready to have some adventures and make new and beautiful memories with those I love. I’m also planning to get back on this blog and do the thing I enjoy most in the world which is storytelling.
I hope you and yours have entered into summer healthy and happily. May we all have some sun on our face, sand on our toes and feel the spray of a mountain waterfall.